2015 is the year of accountability. Recently, I wrote out and published a plan that would help me to become more accountable for some of my personal goals. Albeit some may be strange to others, there are reasons beyond the surface that I want to do these things for myself. In general, personal growth is important to me, and it’s not about my writing; it’s not about my singing either — it’s about stepping outside of my box, being vulnerable, and putting myself out there, imperfect as I am.
I haven’t reached any three of my goals (I’m giving myself until the end of the year), but I wanted to show that I am taking steps toward them — hence the accountability part.
GOAL #1. Post a song of myself singing the blues on YouTube. So this isn’t YouTube; it’s a small snippet of audio, and it’s far from good (EEEEK!), but as a part of my growth, I want to be okay with not being perfect and loving my imperfections, while still sharing my imperfect self with others. I’m fairly certain I don’t even get the words right (but what’s new?). It’s about the process for me, and not where I end up. This is one of my favorite songs to sing (It Hurt So Bad by Susan Tedeschi), and it hurt so good. I’m currently memorizing the (real) lyrics, and working up the nerve to record the entire song. Get that guitar ready!
GOAL #2. Read my poem(s) at an open mic night. This past week, I wrote and edited/revised the crap out of a three-minute poem, Papered Walls, until it became something I was proud of. My intention is to perform it as spoken word. Initially, I was going to post it here, but I’ve decided not to, at least for the time being. I’m not purposely hiding anything, but I think I’d rather people “see” it for the first time when I perform it, rather than reading it in a post. Now comes the memorization and choreography part of it. I decided this was the best way for me to merge two of my loves — poetry and performance. I also signed up to go to a local poetry slam next week to check out the performers, see what it’s all about, and sign up for a spot in a near-future slam. FYI, I might be forcing you to come watch me.
GOAL #3. Get ripped. I post so many post-workout selfies on my Facebook page that people are probably sick of this schweaty face. Follow me here.
I’ll continue keeping you posted on my progress. Here’s to making mistakes, owning them, loving them, and allowing them to nourish us!